It's a new year....a new day....

This year, I plan on doing a lot of things differently and having a lot more fun! I'm in love and am so happy!!!! It's amazing....

But I'm in a meeting so gotta go...I'll holla!!!!

Why do I wear my heart on my sleeve and my emotions on my face? I dunno. It's always so easy for people to tell what I'm feeling. Sometimes I wish I were better at covering it up. Me and my boyfriend have been arguing like everyday recently and it sucks. Some people say that it makes your relationship stronger but that's not how I feel. It makes me feel like we're not right for eachother even though I love him so much. I think I feel this way because I'm just so super sensitive. I need to get over that. Just because we argue doesn't mean that we should break up...I'm just paranoid and don't want that to happen. I dunno...I think i need to toughen up a little and learn how to not always take things to heart. I do that too much.

Hello, hello, hello again!!! It's been a little bit. Everything is going well right now (for the most part). I could complain, but I won't. It just doesn't make sense. I've realized that if something is worth complaining about then I might as well just do something about it and nix the complainin. Nobody wants to hear me whine!! lol! I'm trying to start a new phase where I don't let things get out of hand. I want to start dealing with problems before they go too far.

I will say that the problems that I'm dealing with right now have to do with my family. My mom, dad, and step-dad in particular. I'm trying to patch up relationships (with dad) and get others to treat me like an adult (my mom and step-dad). I think that the one that is most important is making things right again with my dad because I miss the relationship that we had just a few months ago. It's crazy how fast things can get out of hand and turn out totally the opposite of what you expected. Who ever thought a little argument would have us not speaking to eachother for months?!? Then with my mom and step-dad, they're just out of control. They want me to do everything that an adult does (take care of myself when it comes to everyday needs) but then they don't want me to DO things that adults do. So hypocritical I say. I'm so over it and over being complacent. Grrrr...

But, other than that...my other relationship is great. My boyfriend and I are doing awesome. Having lots of fun together. I had big plans for Sweetest Day but now L has to go to Tennessee with his mom (he didn't want to let her drive by herself and I respect that) and I have to go to Battle Creek for a Kellogg Foundation Seminar. So we'll have to do our Sweetest Day next weekend. Oh well, I guess that just gives me more time to plan. I don't know what we're gonna do...I gotta get on it...now that I have more time to do it.

I'm gonna stop writing for now...I'm in Pharmacology class and should be paying attention.

Holla!!!!!

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